Contemplative

Today seemed to go better than the past couple days have.  I'm still behind in my classwork, but that is a horse of a different color.  Dad got me chocolate ice cream...it was delicious.  I weighed myself this morning and I lost 2 more lbs (YAY).  I go tomorrow for my workout at the hospital (yay free rehab)...so I will get the "official" weigh-in there.  I should bring good tidings on THAT matter.  Overall, I realized the word I was searching for was lost.  I was lost in my own emotions, and needed to find a direction again.  It is so difficult to stay focused on your own life and responsibilities when other things in the world are just coming at you at so many different directions.  I can't control everything...but I want to.  This, chaos, that I feel is surrounding me has beaten down my defenses and I have allowed it to take control.  It is going to be a struggle, but until things calm down, I will just have to take things day by day...and pray that my professors forgive me!