The Monday Blues

Hello everyone, and welcome to Monday!  The beginning of a long week for some, just another day for me.

My hubs started his first week of "real" work today!  He got hired at the Casino as a Cage Cashier and he is so excited.  He has been wanting to work there since he started college years ago and finally has his chance.  He will be on third shift, but started today at 4:00 to ease into the time difference (nice of them right?).  Which means, today and tomorrow I'm alone in the evenings until he gets home after midnight.

Normally, I love having time to myself, but after last night, I could use the company.

I know and understand that being pregnant comes with difficult health issues...but insomnia was not something I was prepared for.

I did not sleep last night.  Not one hour, not one minute.  By the time Jeremiah woke up this morning, I was 1/2 functioning and my chest hurt.  Not good.  He was able to get me to sleep around 10am, but it only lasted til 2:30.  The chest pain is mostly gone, but I still feel like crap.

Then comes Wal-Mart.  I went to get some groceries with my last two WIC vouchers, and almost broke down at the checkout because I was under the fruits/veggies by a couple dollars.  I was upset because I weighed and added, and I was supposed to be a few cents over.  NOPE!  Then the woman says, "It's only $1.20."

..........

I cracked..."It's another package of veggies that we can't afford!"  She then began to make excuses...a futile attempt to make me feel better, "Maybe something was on sale that you didn't see," "Maybe you added wrong," etc.  Didn't help.

There were people in line and I just said to finish the transaction.  I know what it's like to wait while people are running around grabbing extra stuff, so I didn't want to be THAT person...but it truly upset me.

I felt stupid.

I got home and was crying, and my Dad gave me a hug and told me that "It's OK," and that, "It wasn't stupid," which helped me feel somewhat better. Then I ate some of my carrots and we talked about me not sleeping and other stuff.

I'm restless...I am trying to find something to do that won't irritate me, the DOG is irritating me...I just want my husband to be here and hold me.

If tonight isn't any better, I'm calling my OB-GYN tomorrow...I don't know if I can take another day like this.